Kerja oh Kerja

Assalamualaikum.

It has been a while I haven't update anything. Busy kerja la katakan. Officially graduated, alhamdulillah officially employed. Habis study bulan June, dapat kerja dgn kilang Julies dkt Melaka bulan 8. Kerja sebulan lebih lepas tu berhenti. Hahaha. Tah kenapa tak kena dgn jiwa aku.

Berhenti, percaya rezeki tu luas. Mungkin sebab aku rasa aku tak nak kerja dgn bidang yang aku study. Aku suka bercakap as in entertain customers. Disebabkan rasa mcm tu, aku berhenti. Kita nak kerja lama. Aku nak be able cakap I LOVE MY JOB nad literally mean it. Aku tak nak dok kerja lama lama but aku tak enjoy. Dua minggu aku menganggur. Dipenuhi dengan aktiviti pi interview sana sini. Last sekali kerja dgn Mama Wosh, laundry company as customer care.

Memang jauh menyimpang. Tp best kerja ni. Aku suka environment dia. Gaji sama dgn Julies, so sapa tak nak. Dah la dekat dgn rumah. Oh yeah kerja dgn foreigner in which aku sorg je perempuan melayu situ. So environment jenis kaki kepoh ni tak ada. Semua jenis tak kaki sibuk, kerja atas dasar kerja. Bos pun awesome, tak ada lah rasa mcm kau golongan minoriti. They treating everyone the same and give a lot of feedback of your performance which is totally different than our culture.

To be honest, nak dpt environment yang kau suka dlm alam pekerjaan susah dho. And I'm super thankful utk dpt oppurtunity ni. Alhamdulillah I chose this job compared to other offer that I got. But semua pun ada kekurangan and kelebihan masing2. Tidak maybe aku dh jadi manager kat burger king. Hahaha tp aku chose this as I'm looking forward of having this work-life balance.

Percaya pada rezeki yang Allah nak beri, mana mana pun ada rezeki. If you don't feel that vibe of working at your current place, leave oh dari nanti kau buat kerja tah apa2. Beratus aku apply kerja sana sini. Tiap2 hari buka jobstreet la, maukerja lah, etc. And lepas habis belajar, aku dapat 8 interviews, 4 offer job semua lain lain bidang yang aku nak explore, dah kerja 2 tempat within 3 months of habis belajar.

If orang kata susah nak dpt kerja sekarang, betul aku tak sangkal benda tu. Tapi maybe you should try harder. And not just focusing the job yang related with what you have studied. Oh yeah despite of aku jenis main apply kerja tak berkaitan apa yang aku study, aku tak la main sebat je. Aku memilih juga bab gaji. If dulu kerja kt melaka dorang offer more than 2k to fresh grads, of course aku cari kerja yang byr gaji lebih kurg. Jadi if you say tak ada kerja macam tu, means you just don't look hard enough. If kau kata kau dah apply tak dpt, means kau tak apply cukup banyak. So stop complaining, cari kerja apply hari2 smp kau dah muak nak hadap webpage job tu.

Walau tiap hari kau dpt mesej "you're application is unsuccessful", takpe apply lebih banyak lagi. Dont be a baby but get up and put more effort. Lastly, percaya rezeki tu luas. Dunia ni pun kau tak dpt jelajahi semua, apatah lagi rezeki tuhan yang terlalu banyak yang hanya menunggu masa utk kau mendapatkannya.

Kerja dan Resume.

Assalamualaikum and hye.

Berdasarkan banyak2 post aku dkt blog ni, I found that post regarding kerja dekat uniqlo paling tinggi beserta org yang komen dkt post tu. Rata rata semua menanyakan contoh resume yang aku buat. The thing is resume yang aku buat utk kerja uniqlo tu sangat biasa and aku pun dulu tengok dkt internet. But itu dulu and bagi aku, just kerja part time so memang simple je resume tu.

But aku tak galakkan orang yang ambil contoh resume aku yang part time tu untuk apply kerja yang mcm office2 ke, yang you want that permanent job utk any firm lepas kau grad macam tu. Sebab resume tersebut sangat simple and basic. Harap maklum yer. Kerja part time retail is not a big deal in terms of resume. You may go all out utk resume korang or you can keep it simple and basic. After all it's a retail industry. Budak sekolah pun boleh apply as part timer. Dari situ korang boleh berfikir secara logik la yang requirement dia tak strict mana kan.

So if nak kerja yang dkt big big firm and so on, kena lah ada proper resume kan. Lepastu bila nak minta kerja dkt those big big firms, buat lah resume satu page. maximum dua lah. Nowadays kan bnyk orang yg buat servis buat kan resume tu. Sediakan duit je. Tak mahal sgt la dlm rm15 mcm tu per resume. Orang akan ish mahalnya!! Ok if mahal kau buat design sendiri if reti. Kalau kau tak reti shut up. Sebabnya kau laburkan duit setakat belas ringgit je then resume tu kau boleh pakai smp bila2 utk kau minta kerja di mana mana. Apalah sgt labur sedikit duit mcm tu dgn kerja yg bakal kau dapat. Minda tu kasi buka eh.

Sebabnya, firm firm ni akan terima LAMBAKAN RESUME lagi2 bila most universities budak2 dia dah habis belajar. Haa kau rasa org HR kat company ni banyak masa nak belek resume kau dua tiga pages tu. Dia hanya akan scan yer. SCAN SAHAJA. Dan if dia rasa sesuai baru lah dia alihkan resume kau dari lambakan tadi ke tempat yang lain utk di tapis lagi. So mestilah resume kau tu kena menarik kan. One tips yg aku belajar dr pergi dgr talk dulu, kalau results korang tak power, jgn letak results. Letak je la qualification mcm bachelor of anything, diploma ke apa. Sebab if results bwh 3.5 confirm confirm org tertarik lagi nak ambil budak yang results lagi power dr kau. Tu some of the tips la.

Ok itu je actually nak mengomel. If nak servis buat resume boleh try mamat ni. Aku dah try dulu. Hehehe. Nombor as tertera dlm resume dia tu.

I'm Okay

I am a human. I have feelings.

I try not to be a baby or be a typical lady who is easily emotional, clingy and over reacting.

I try to be normal. Things I have to be mad, I try to play it cool. But for some reason, I feel like I'm not being me. I've lost myself along the way of being "normal".

I say OK to everything. When people asked me "Don't be mad", Don't be sad", etc and I say OK. But again I'm a human. Who has feelings and emotions. 

I'm tired. I feel like I'm not the old me. The one who loves to chatter around, the one who has high pitch voice, the one who acts so diva, the one who always sulking, the one who easily get mad and cool. If you think I am no longer act like that with you meaning I am not being myself.

I'm tired to see the situation around me. I'm tired cos no one actually care to know about it. What's worse is when you try to share it with somebody, but they are clueless about telling you what you gotta do. Instead trying to change the topic cos dont want a serious conversation.

Oh god. Sometimes I do wish for a second chance to start fresh. To actually have the chance to choose people I really want in my life. To rethink about the decisions that I've made. How come I feel last time was the best moment ever happened in my life despite all the hardness that I've been through. I swear I dont have this kind of feeling before. 

I just need to be rescued. From all of these bullshits, people's bullshits. How they dont appreciate you or feel you are not worth to be appreciated, til one day they think they feel alone and come after you. Sometimes I just want to get away from all the people I've known and start living in a new place. Unknown. Wonder who will look for me.

I guess no one. Cos people would think I'm OK.

Birthday Surprise Ideas

Assalamualaikum.

Hye just wanna share some stuffs. Hari tu my guy friend tanya nak buat apa untuk birthday his girlfriend. Sebagai dr Love i gave him some advice. Hahaha padahal more on based kpd preference sendiri but since imma a girl i guess most ladies will appreciate je apa orang buat dekat dia.

Okay. What you guys can do?

1. Belikan hadiah yg dia memang nak. sometimes perempuan suka bg hint by sending u photos ke, ckp "ee cantik kan??!!!!" Takpun bila jalan dia nampak something then dia ckp bnd yg sama berulang2. So take note of that

2. Belikan perfume. Perfume yg you guys suka bau dia. So if lah korg pilih bau yg tak sedap utk gf korg. Tp bila korg ckp, pakai lah bila keluar dgn i. I suka bau tu if u pakai. Confirm your girl akan bahagia je pakai even bau dia bukan kegemaran ur gf. Hehehehe

3. Buat kad. Paling jimat tapi effort kena tip top. Dia akan simpan elok2 punya

4. Masak untuk dia, Ni pun jimat. Like bake cake ke apa. Simple je. Resepi banyak.

5. Buat surprise delivery. Skrg dgn instagram bnyk je yg provide service mcm ni. Sediakan saja ongkosnya. Ada yang bawah RM100. so pagi pagi dpt bunga or coklat of course rasa dihargai giteww

6. Buat video. Maybe video korang wish birthday ke, video korg dgn kawan2 dia yg setiap sorg wish birthday utk dia, or even strangers mana mana kau heret masuk video sekali pun boleh. Sweet kan.

7. Prank time birthday. Surprise party. Ni perlukan effort yg tinggi dan smooth planning.

8. If korg malas nk fikir, bawa je pergi makan restoran, then ckp dgn waiter/waitress tu hari ni birthday dia. Cakap tu sorok2 lah! Kang kantoi lah. Nanti order la desert ke apa and nnt time hantar tu waiter/waitress tu nyanyi beramai2 birthday song. Macam i myself pernah dulu dkt Chilis. Tak tahu nk rasa terharu or malu sbnrnya. Kahkahkah

9. Belikan a slice of cake pun okay. And take a moment just to wish her personally. If boleh nyalakan lah lilin. Nampak la effort nak nyalakan candle. Baru semangat birthday. Ditokok with a letter or card expressing your love ke, wish ke etc. Simple, jimat, romantic and kena jujur lah feeling yg di express tu.

10. Belikan differents shades of tudung color. Huish tu boleh datang kan happy juga. Ada 10 shades of purple ke, merah ke, kelabu ke. Tudung crepe baru rm5 sehelai. Hahaha

11. Belikan apa yg dia perlukan. For example, perempuan lebih kpd fikir apa dia nak dari apa yg dia perlukan. So guys korg kan lagi bijak. Korg lagi nmpk apa yg dia perlukan. kadang2 kasut dia dah koyak, beg dah rabak, Belilah yang baru. Perempuan bila dia dpt dia maybe mcm "laa knp u belikan ni, i punya ok je lagi". Korg pancing lah "U lagi perlukan ni dari bnd lain. At least u guna lah yg baru ni.". Nnt dia ckp korg sweet sebab prihatin. Hahahha

12. Pergi tampal sticky note ke apa dekat kereta dia. Minta tolong roommate ke adik dia ke buat bnd yg sama kat bilik dia ke.


Haa itu je la yang boleh fikir. Hhaaha malas pula nk type pepanjang. Basically apa yg korg buat akan dihargai je. As long as you show interest in celebrating ur loved ones punya birthday. Kau excited nak celebrate hari yang dia lahir walaupun tak ada kena mengena dgn hari lahir kau. Kbai!

Komunikasi

Assalamualaikum and hye!

This is just a random entry.

As an observer, kita always rasa kasihan and at the same time annoyed bila org look pathetic because of love. How they keep on meroyan on social media, feel lost, tak selera makan tak selera hidup just because of love. Well even i myself experience this.

But the main point i want to highlight is if u can communicate ur feeling out on social media why cant u communicate with ur partner to solve things out. Love. You let urself hurt so many times but u still dont want to go away while u have the chance. You still want to stay hoping that there'll be silver lining shining ur way through bringing victory. Kita ada pilihan whether to stay or run away. But we choose to stay.

Tapi if we choose to stay then work things out. Not by babbling urself dkt social media. Nobody likes when kau canang kau tgh bergaduh dgn partner kau. Komunikasi sgt penting. Dan komunikasi meaning perkataan yg baik2 even kau rasa kau mcm nk meletup tp kau still act cool. I love to highlight situasi yg aku dpt masa pergi kursus kahwin dulu.

Bayangkan lelaki bawa bini pi psr mlm. Yg perempuan dia dh beli laksa, apam balik, popia, donut dgn roti john di tgn. Bila lalu dpn peniaga kaya ball dia ckp dgn laki dia.

Situasi 1:
Wife: *berdiri dpn kaya ball smbl telan air liur sambil pndg laki*
Suami: eh awak ni! Kat tgn awk tu dh ada mcm mcm. Dah dah tak yah mcm mcm. Jom balik!! *bentak si suami*
Wife: *dlm kete pndg cermin muncung mulut*
Suami: knp ni syg?
Wife: tak de pape.
Suami: knp ni diam je?
Wife: tak de pape lah!
Suami: abis tu knp?
Wife: eee awk nim sy dh kata sy nk kaya ball! Awk ni sy dh ckp nak kaya ball. Nak kaya ball lah. Awk main blah mcm tu je. Dah sy nk rasa kaya ball. Apam balik, laksa,popia, donut dgn roti john tu tak ada rasa kaya ball!! Sbb tu sy nk kaya ball. *membebel setengah jam*

........

Situasi 2:
Wife: *berdiri dpn kaya ball smbl telan air liur sambil pndg laki*
Suami: awak nak ke?
Wife: nakkkkkk......
Suami: tapi kt tgn tu dh ada mcm mcm la syg.
Wife: tapi nak kaya ball jugaaaaaa
Suami: okay boleh. Tp kan syg. Kita makan sebab lapar bkn sbb nafsu. Tahu tak syg, nabi terkeluar dr syurga disebabkan makan tau syg. Ni kali ni sy benarkan. Lps ni awk kena beringat sendiri.
Wife: urmmmmmmmm. Takpelah banggg . Jom balikkkk!
Suami: eh xnak dh kaya ball?
Wife: tak nak lah. Dah balik jom!

Nampak tak beza dia. Cara komunikasi. Semua org boleh komunikasi tp intonasi dan hemahnya komunikasi tu. Hahahaha dh boleh jd penceramah motivasi dah ni. Okay selamat beramal!

You are not their first, so that is why you got treated differently.

Assalamualaikum and hye.

Dalam dunia ini memang manusia tak pernah puas dengan apa yang dia ada. Dalam perhubungan sekali pun, jikalau tak ada ombak datang membadai, dia sendiri cari pasal mencari ombak nak bagi diri lemas.

Wahh gitu metafora aku.

Setiap orang ada sejarah silam dia. Tak semua orang suka berkongsi perkara yang lepas sbb dah tak penting lagi. Macam perangai aku, memang suka selidik. Lagi bila orang tak suka bercerita, aku sendiri selidik sampai jumpa. Kenapa aku selidik? Nak tahu mcm mana perangai orang tu, kawan kawan dia, scandalzz lampau ke if ada, cara dia komunikasi dgn orang, etc.

Kadang2 suatu perkara yang menyedihkan/menyakitkan/geli/menyampah dalam proses menyelidik ini. Tapi curiosity kau mengatasi semua benda tu. The thing is..

Bila kau dh tahu, and kau compare cara mereka layan kwn2 mereka, scandalz zaman dulu ke apa jauh lebih bagus dari attitude mereka dgn kau, buat kau kadang2 terfikir,

"You are not their first, so that's why you are treated that way". 

Zaman muda, hormon memuncak, excited terlebih, membalas setiap minit, if tak balas, buat karangan berjela tanya if merajuk, marah mohon ampun maaf di setiap akhir conversation.

Tapi maybe sebab pengalaman yang lps bila dah baik mcm tu org still buat tahi dkt kau, agaknya sebab tu skrg attitude tu dah berubah.

Macam aku, tak kisah lah scandal ke, kekasih gelap ke, kawan ke, boyfriend pertama ke dah masuk dua ke, enam belas ke, once you matter for me, i will do my very best to make you happy. Bukanlah bila org sana diam merajuk, kau buat bodoh and esok pagi say hye like nothing happened je kan. Ada orang yang sanggup to be with you accept all ur flaws, so patut kau akan lagi fall for that person even more. However, susah kot nak dizahirkan.

Hahaha kelakar bila tengok the way people treat the person they once loved with the person they are in love now. But because im just too old for this kind of bullshits so like whatever.

I always pray to god, i do my very best to make people around me happy and be considerate and stuff. If mereka tak membalas dengan cara yang sama it's okay. Sebab what goes around comes around. Maybe ada somebody yg akan hadir salurkan kebahagiaan tu dgn cara yg lain.

Bear this in mind: If you dont like people to compare your past and present, then make a change of your present because what matters most is who stays with you now. They have the right to get treated way better than all those people who dont appreciate you. Make em feel they are worth it for you. You cant expect people to be optimistic 24/7 when your actions and your words not sync. Console. That is what we should do to make things better. To heal the broken heart. Cos each one of us have undergone heart break.

2016 and still alive!

Assalamualaikum and hello!

Omaigod it's already 2016! First post of 2016 ni. Alhamdulillah still given the chance by Allah to be alive at this moment.

Untuk 2015, ramai yang muda muda dah pergi mengadap Ilahi. Kadang2 aku fikir bila masa aku akan tiba. Ada ke yang akan mengenang aku if aku pergi. Rakan rakan hanya bersimpati pada ketika itu. Dan kemudian mereka masih mampu tertawa dan meneruskan kehidupan seperti biasa. Keluarga mungkin mengambil masa utk recover dan setelah berbulan mereka dapat pulih dari rasa kehilangan itu. Cuma doa dan amal yang menemani. Sedangkan amalan pun tak mampu nak dibangga maka hanya doa yang dpt diharapkan.

Tapi kalau pergi sebelum sempat berkahwin dan punyai anak, hanya doa dari keluarga dan sahabat yg masih mahu mengingati. Always dalam fikiran aku, siapa yang mahu mengingati aku dan menyampaikan doa nya utk aku bila aku pergi. Maka jgnlah kita berharap pada manusia kerana manusia itu banyak kelemahannya. Selagi hidup bersedekah lah apa yang boleh. Tenaga and harta kerana itu je yang mampu utk tolong kau dialam sana.

Recite every possible surah yang mampu selamatkan kau dekat sana. Al mulk, As sajadah, al kahfi, etc. Kadang kau tak ada masa, buka lah youtube dengar recitation or download dengar sambil buat kerja. 2016 should be a change. Aku pun tak pasti mampu ke utk istiqamah. Tapi at least you got that sense dimana dah bertahun kau hidup, apa je kau dah buat utk persiapan kau kat sana. Org lain makin baik dan ada yang makin jahat juga. Kau pilihlah nak yang mana. Sedih tak fikir bila kau fikir kau akan ke neraka? Sanggup tak fikir kau akan kena hadap segala seksaan yg pernah ustaz n ustazah kau cerita masa sekolah? Cerita pun seram apatah lg bila fikir amalan tak seberapa ni.

Hahaha i never intend to start the first entry of the year with this story. I was about to write pasal going bald this year. Tapi tah kenapa tgn yang ingin menulis mengikut gerak hati. But yeah. It's like muhasabah diri sikit awal2 tahun. The real entry pasal, i just cut my hair really short. mcm lelaki punya hair cut lah. Siap shave at the back, nmpk telinga semua. Sebab rambut pun bnyk gugur, rosak so i think of cut it short. Tiba tiba bila dah potong, rasa nak go for botak pula. Nak kasi rambut baru tumbuh. I just feel like wanna go for it. Memang perempuan tak digalakkan botak sebab menyerupai lelaki tp I have reasons of doing it. Rambut pun akan tumbuh dan inginkan rambut yang sihat selepas kejahanaman yg kau dh buat pada rambut kau suatu masa dulu menyebabkan aku terpaksa nk ambil keputusan ini. And selagi belum kahwin ni, inilah masanya kau nak buat segala bnd kat rambut kau , nak botak ke, nak mohawk ke kan.

So yeah this year, going bald, finish my fyp, road to graduation, get a job, getting fit, be better person inside out.

Cheers.